8:35pm

Walking towards the bathroom, my hair in a messy ponytail, bags under my eyes, wearing an oversize hoodie and some athletic shorts, looking like an actual mess thinking a nice warm shower would help me. Closing the door behind me, setting my white fluffy towel on the counter and turning the water on in the shower making sure it’s not too hot but not too cold. While waiting for the water to get to the temperature I want, I started stripping off my clothes till I was able to see my bare body, I looked at myself in the mirror, my god I looked drained and just weak. ‘Why am I so tired? I didn’t even do anything today’ I thought to myself. I pulled my hair out of my ponytail and let it fall. Sighing to myself I checked the water in the shower to see if it was the right temperature. Opening the shower curtain I stepped my left foot in and then my right finally entering the shower I felt so relaxed. The warm water hitting my body, my hair slowly getting dampened by the water, the water trickling down my face almost felt like tears running down my cheeks. I just sat there letting my thoughts just fade away and just let my body relax from the water. After what probably felt like 3 hours but really was just 45 minutes, I got out of the shower and started drying myself off with my towel; once I finished, flicking the light off and heading to my bedroom. Closing the door I dropped the towel off myself, I grabbed some comfortable clothes from my drawers. Putting the clothing over my body, I combed my hair out and picked up my clothes ready to take them down to the laundry room.

9:58pm

Setting my clothing in the laundry basket, I headed to the fridge to grab a bottle of water. I set it down on the counter and grabbed my medicine to take before bed. “Going to bed Aisha?” turning around and seeing my mom, “Yeah I am” I said swallowing my medication, “Alright sleep well” she said as she walked back to her bedroom, “I will” I responded walking back up to my room. Once I got there I shut my door and turned my lamp off. I grabbed my LED light remote and turned them into a light shade of red. I set the remote down and went under my sheets. I grabbed my phone and decided to go through Pinterest cause that’s what I do every night before bed.

10:46pm

I looked at the time and noticed it was getting late. I put my phone on do not disturb and set it down on my nightstand. Right when I thought I was about to fall asleep, the thoughts and just overthinking things hit me. I rolled my eyes and turned to face the ceiling. Just staring at the blank wall above, just letting every thought that came to my mind come to me. I shut my eyes and just tried to relax myself, ’why now’ I kept saying to myself.

12:22am

Finally I feel my eyes slowly closing, my body ready to go to dreamland. Taking one last big deep breath and falling deep asleep. Guess I’ll see what tomorrow will bring me.